So, this thing just happened.
Now I am just sitting here with this stupid smile on my face and I literally cannot stop.
I cannot even put into words how much it means, because it is the first time ever that I’ve managed to come this far.
I’ve been dreaming to write a book since I was eight years old. This one is just a fraction of what it could be. It is scattered, un-edited and terribly flawed and yet just because it is, because I managed to get to the bottom of it, I love it with all my heart.
The thing is, I was the first not to believe that I could make it. Countless times I’ve started projects that saw no end, never managing to finish what I set out to do, and even as I signed up for NaNoWriMo, I knew deep inside that it was going to be just another one of my failed attempts.
But guess what? IT WASN’T.
I made it. 50,000 words, in one month.
I guess I’m lucky, because at the very least, even as I doubted my writing, my choices, my scenes, my plot, I never once doubted my characters. And I never once got bored of them.
I don’t know if it’s just because I’m good at keeping a one-track-obsession for long periods of time. But I honestly think it’s just because I chose right, when I decided to give these particular characters - of all the others swimming my brain aimlessly - a chance at their own story.
So, I really, just have Gilmer, Eesil and Lara to thank.
I’ll be editing the novel as soon as I find the brain-power to do it (tomorrow, I hope, Friday at most) and I’ll be posting excerpts on my writing blog as I go on and I find things that are-not-so-terrible-after-all.
My NaNo account and synopsis (and an itsy-bitsy excerpt where Eez and Gil are basically themselves) can be found here.